TRANSITION

as some of you may know, i lost my job a little over a month ago. as you can imagine it was a rather harsh blow for me. the shock, the worry, the uncertain future in these troubled economic times and lastly, the reality of my situation. to be completely honest, i was hurt by what transpired at my former job, having been released about one month short of my 6th year with this company, i'm fired. oh, believe me, if my objective is to be open and honest with my readers, i can't change direction now and try to minimize or "candy coat" this. i wouldn't only not be honest, but not truthful by trying to convey it as if i was "laid off" when in fact i wasn't. i do regret making decisions that day that i was released, but early on, i knew what's done is done. yeah, i didn't like such a drastic decision, although this was my livelihood, it's not the end of life. just the end of this particular chapter in my life.

with an unemployment claim denied, no concrete job lined up, the search continues. however in the midst of this TRANSITION i am at peace. as i've told several friends, i have NO OTHER CHOICE but to remain positive, hopefully and focused. yeah, the "sting" of losing my job shook me a little, but i picked up myself, ironically, three days later. i know that for whatever reason God has allowed for this to happen, it's in my best interest. yeah, i don't know what awaits me in the near future, but if i stay true to my faith and walk in the Lord, not only will He guide me, but if need be carry me. i refuse to fall into the trap of despair, hurt, anger, bitterness, hopelessness, fear and so on. the way that i see this is, what good would all that do for me??? what good is worry?? what good is hurt or bitterness?? what good is fear?? how do those thoughts and emotions help lift me up, encourage me, or guide me through this season. i cannot and will not pass myself as the "poor little victim", in all honesty, that's just pretty dumb. if this season is to test my faith, than so be it, but by the same token i have to be proactive in what i do to find a job.

in this midst of this uncertainty i now find myself in, i'm thankful God Himself has blessed me with a close circle of trusted friends . . . . brothers, if you will, who surround me and i know, pray for me. one of which helped me to come on board at a charter school to help substitute while i continue my search of permanent employment. these friend, these brothers God allowed for them to come my way by His divine plan. I recall telling one of these brothers that i don't know how some people not only blame God, but hold it against Him when life changes (crisis) come their way. in all honesty??? i don't understand how a person who doesn't have a relationship with Christ, get through some of the mess life hands us, that whole concept is beyond me.

i leave you with this, this morning i didn't set out to post a new blog entry. i was simply on-line doing some job searches and HE prompted me to share this. if you find yourself in a crisis, whether it's a job situation, health, finances, family, a lost job or home, endless amounts of debt, know and i mean know it in your spirit, don't just understand it, know it, that whatever season you find yourself in, it is working for your good. i know, (i really do) it may not seem like it when we're in the middle of a future of uncertainty and we have all these unanswered questions, but HE IS THERE! you may not "feel" HIM, but HE is. in the middle of endless job searches, HE IS THERE, in the midst of family crisis, HE IS THERE, frustrated with a job, HE IS THERE, in the midst of heartache and broken promises, HE IS THERE, don't know how you're going to make ends meet? HE IS THERE, whatever you face, not only trust HIM, but trust IN HIM.

my prayer for you who read this, is that the peace of GOD ALMIGHTY surround you, may HE lift you up, and take you places that in your mind were not possible, because i simply trust HIM to do it for me as well. blessings!

strength and honor,

[dM]